Relationships

what is it going to take for me to be in a healthy, loving relationship? i've done so much healing work. but all of it has just brought me to where i am now. not in a relationship. i have yet to be in and experience an adult loving relationship. what is that? why? it's so... ridiculous to me. it's not like i haven't wanted one. this isn't about complaining or feeling bad or sorry for myself. just telling it like it is.

i have yet to experience being unconditionally loved in a relationship. wow. something's gotta give.